October Writer's Thread

[Yakko Red]

He saw her in a dream tonight
seemed like she even remembered him
as she climbed on top of his chest
and fell fast asleep

he saw her in a dream tonight
her sunshine of a smile that she had
lit up more than just the room
but broke through the apocalypse

he saw her in a dream tonight
echos of days long past
days forever gone for certain
the yesterday where he was happy

he saw her in a dream tonight
the bubble popped and she was gone
now he wishes that just maybe
he didn't wake up ever again

he saw her in a dream tonight

raise your glass for better days

[Yakko Red]

i am a junkie
a two bit good for nothing punk
i'm the maddness that society warned you about
when i'm an alcoholic i'm more than happy
to drink until i forget, hitting rock bottom
it's there i truly find myself although i'm laying in a gutter
dirty and unrecognizable in need of a shower
i'm the person people stay away from(if they were smart)
as i don't do much good or am good for anything
i'm the unrepairable broken that owes his existence
to none other than himself

i'm the traveler that really hasn't gone anywhere
seeing sunrises from a boat at open sea
to sunsets over the ridges of lush forests
belonging to mountains that civilization has yet to infect
i can most often be found
being a stranger in a strange land
from one place to another a lost soul
empty eyed and dead inside
looking for an answer
when he never had a question

i'm the writer that doesn't write so much anymore
because i don't want people to know what i'm thinking
i'm the worthless fuck that destined one day for an alley
i'm the type of guy that would have a bad dream at 4 am
and get mad when i can't find a bottle of liquor to dive into
just something to numb me again for a moment
the hangover from the whatever after is then my inspiration
only then do i pick up the mighty pen
and found myself able to write again

i'm the lover that doesn't love anymore
because no one sees anything like that in me
and yesterdays have taken too much from me
because people were too concerned in getting fucked
by any dick they could stick in any hole they had
even if i had the biggest heart in the world
the way i've been treated is like father time informing me
"that lost son, it will never be enough for the vultures of life"

i'm the dancer that only feels whole on the wooden floors
10 years now and the music has been my angel
when the lights come on and everyone goes home
my heart is still there, even though itself
is broken and bandaged trying to still stay with us
you can almost hear each beat
too bad no record can match it

i'm an angry soul that doubles as a time bomb
i've got evil in me to spare
find me a child molester or a rapist or a murderer
and i'll show you what darkness lays in men's hearts
as i cut off their fucking balls and make them watch
as i flush them down the goddamn toilet
smiling while providing an example
who am i to judge? definitely not the better man
but sometimes when the light fails you
you walk someplace in darkness
and find the answers you needed

i'm the freedom fighter without a cause
some overrated tool that had an expiration date
one that passed a long time ago
not good for much anymore
an old man rattling his saber
just old and in the way

i'm the blue eyed dreamer that won't give up
that sees that there is good in people and humanity
finding belief that there is something worth fighting for
it's either over here or there or someplace else
but definitely out there like a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow
waiting to be found by some lucky son of a bitch
just maybe i could be that one

like marvin tate said, "I'm a genius, but in a useless kind of way"

[Article One]

thats a hell of an introspective extrication right there cliff. :thumbsup:

reminds me of the Who's "Behind Blue Eyes", even before you mention eye color in your actual piece. and i think thats a particularly great song (well, the original is anyway)

"No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
No one knows what it's like
To be hated, to be fated
To telling only lies
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance that's never free..."

-R. Daltrey

[Fetterbug]

You must spread some Reputation around before giving it to Catalyst again.

[Yakko Red]

bump

[Illuminated]

Beyond Human

Every living soul, has a story to tell
Every one in particular
Has a life of its own
From one to another

So many feelings and characters
So much to see and to feel
So many who are disabled
So many who can’t thank enough they are healthier than others

So is life
So is Earth
So is the world
Only some things can be understood

Others aren’t worth the time to hear about
So many, in such a small World
Comparing to such a huge Universe
Where there may be other life than its own

Beyond human
Who may understand more, or less?
Earth itself, with all human beings
May have a few who are different than all

And no doubt, there are such human beings
Who can see beyond life
Who can understand the surroundings of Earth
Unlike others who only live to live

Others are beyond a point of living
Others want to conquer all
Beyond humans, who think the impossible may be possible
Some of which may come to failure

Others who may come to new conclusions or successes
A balance and a cut off life from many people
Though alike, many think different, others think none
But others think beyond what there is to see

Beyond human
Here they stand
From time to time, some of these are heard of
Some of these are unheard of, and these are the wonders of the Universe

[nyhope]

but sometimes when the light fails you
you walk someplace in darkness
and find the answers you needed


:affection:

these three lines struck me the most.

both of those were excellent though.

[Yakko Red]

Dear someone,

I need a favor, you see, my life is perfect right now. The past few weeks life has just gotten better and better with each passing day. I have the best friends that one could ask for, and I live in a beautiful city that's filled full of life and good times.

Years ago when I was lost I never thought to look up because I just didn't think that anything would be there. It's like why look up if you're only going to be disapointed? The road has been rough out of hell and I'm not completely out quite yet, but I'm damn close to having the life that I've always wanted since I fell off the right path.

You see, I'm not perfect, and I've done a bad thing here or there. I've not been the best of friend at times, and to be honest, I've done some things to people that I downright regret. There were times when I simply didn't like myself.

Then this, this place, these people.... they've been the friends and the support that money can't buy. I could say I'm blessed but I wouldn't want that to overshadow the fact that I'm very much honored to be a part of these people's lives.

So back to my original question, my favor I ask.... please pinch me so I know for sure that I'm not dreaming and this is real.

Best Regards
me

[Ink Blot]

how girls/guys think differently...

boy: i saw her today.
girl: i saw him today.
boy: it seems like it's been forever.
girl: i wonder if he still cares.
boy: she looks better than before.
girl: i couldn't stop staring at him.
boy: i asked her how things were going.
girl: i asked about his new girlfriend.
boy: i'd choose her over any girl.
girl: he's probably really happy with other girls.
boy: i couldn't look at her without wanting to cry.
girl: he couldn't even look into my eyes
boy: i told her i miss her.
girl: he doesn't really miss me.
boy: i meant it.
girl: he didnt mean it.
boy: i love her.
girl: he loves his new girlfriend.
boy: i held her for the last time.
girl: he just gave me a friendly hug.
boy: then i went home and cried.
girl: then i went home and cried.
boy: i lost her.
girl: i love him so much.

friend wrote it, thought it was nice

[Article One]

i like it. girl/boy could be interchangeable...and its not so much how we think differently from each other as it is sometimes when a situation cuts down the lines of communication, everything is easily misinterpreted.

[Article One]

i thought id borrow you today
steal your thoughts away from this
clearly bitter day of waste
im sinking in again
back into that hole again
waiting for your touch again and
thinking
maybe im just lone-ly

i couldnt stay away for long
scathe you on and on with my
clear and bitter saline songs
im just thinking in again
sinking in your hole again
starving for your touch again and
pacing
maybe im just craze-y

i thought id wash you down once more
sink through your perfect pores into
sweet dreams of me adored
im sleeping tight again
wretching fevered hot again
crying for your heat again and
dying
maybe im just failing

[housecat]

I don't know how you guys post this stuff. I don't really write but sometimes I do. I wrote for like a half hour to an hour last night but there is no way in hell I'd share it. I threw it out once I was done.

Anyway, good stuff in here more people need to post stuff they don't mind sharing.

[trancedance]

Outside
The wind blows cold
Even the shadows shiver

[Article One]

aw...dina. you should share it...or at the very least, dont chuck it out. we often write what we cannot say, what we would not say, or even what we normally delude ourselves into thinking we should not say. so for nothing else, its good to look at that sometimes.

[trancedance]

I don't know why
as time goes by
I feel no pain
in this short game

I've paid the cost
love has been lost
Why don't I feel
what is now real

The sun comes up
the darkness is ending
Are the messages received
that I'm sending

I don't really care
to tell the truth
That is the story
of my youth

The sun now falls
behind the walls
it does not hear me call it back
Why does it leave
I can't conceive
all it's left behind is black

[housecat]

aw...dina. you should share it...or at the very least, dont chuck it out. we often write what we cannot say, what we would not say, or even what we normally delude ourselves into thinking we should not say. so for nothing else, its good to look at that sometimes.
You're absolutely right. I used to save them but threw a lot of it out. I may just start up again tho :) Writing is like the best therapy ever.

[trancedance]

for more....if you want:

http://www.geocities.com/dswilsonzbt/index.htm

[nyhope]

Writing is like the best therapy ever.
:hifive:

amen sister.

[Article One]

pardon me while i burst into flames.

[Yakko Red]

i've had enough of this world
and these peoples mindless games

[housecat]

Damn you. Now that song's in my head.

:hatedoug:

[trancedance]

pardon me while i burst into flames.
you are excused.

[Article One]

i've had enough of this world
and these peoples mindless games



you can't not like incubus i think. the music rocks but its also so lyrically incredible that you could spend days just reading through it.

[Article One]

Damn you. Now that song's in my head.

:hatedoug:


:D

no love from da :housecat:

[housecat]

You always get da :housecat: love beotch.

[/plur]

[Article One]

:plurstick:

[Illuminated]

I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine, in a bag
I'm useless,but not for long
The future is coming on
I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine, in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long
The future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on

Yeah... Ha Ha!
Finally someone let me out of my cage
Now, time for me is nothing cos I'm counting no age
Now I couldn't be there
Now you shouldn't be scared
I'm good at repairs
And I'm under each snare
Intangible
Bet you didn't think so I command you to
Panoramic view
Look I'll make it all manageable
Pick and choose
Sit and lose
All you different crews
Chicks and dudes
Who you think is really kickin' tunes?
Picture you gettin' down in a picture tube
Like you lit the fuse
You think it's fictional
Mystical? Maybe
Spiritual
Hearable
What appears in you is a clearer view cos you're too crazy
Lifeless
To know the definition for what life is
Priceless
For you because I put you on the hype shit
You like it?
Gunsmokin' righteous with one token
Psychic among those
Possess you with one go

I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine, in a bag
I'm useless,but not for long
The future is coming on
I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine, in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long
The future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on

The essence the basics
Without it you make it
Allow me to make this
Child, like in nature
Rhythm
You have it or you don't that's a fallacy
I'm in them
Every sprouting tree
Every child apiece
Every cloud you see
You see with your eyes
I see destruction and demise
Corruption in disguise
>From this f**kin' enterprise
Now I'm sucking to your lies
Through Russ, though not his muscles but the percussion he
provides
with me as a guide
But y'all can see me now cos you don't see with your eye
You perceive with your mind
That's the inner
So I'm gonna stick around with Russ and be a mentor
With a few rhymes so mother f**kers
Remember where the thought is
I brought all this
So you can survive when law is lawless
Feelings, sensations that you thought were dead
No squealing, remember
(that it's all in your head)

I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine, in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long
The future is coming on
I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine, in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long
My future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on

[Article One]

i hate that fucking song

[Article One]

and that dude is SO ripping off Deltron 3030

[plur2all]

Cruel Fate

Today I cried so many tears
Today I faced so many fears
I find my thoughts turn to you
Wondering what should I do?

I need to know that you’re okay
I wonder every single day
You’ll always have a hold on me
Although we weren’t meant to be.

My mind tells me to walk away
While my heart tells me I should stay
Although I know my mind is right
It is a never ending fight.

In my dreams I can see your face
Sometimes I feel your sweet embrace
I dream of kisses that we share
And knowing how much you care.

Alas I stop to think and I hesitate
You are not a part of my fate
So I stop and cry one more time
Because our paths do not align.
-Sarah Hart
10/17/04

[plur2all]

Everyone, very nice writes.

[Yakko Red]

her eyes cast shadows across him with their glance
sorrows hypnotically vortexing and consuming all
in days past he was fooled by the mask she wore
but not on this grey sky day will he be a victim
to the constructed maddness designed in selfishness

deep down somewhere in the vault that is his heart
he hopes that buried in that wreckage of her shell
is some sort of light trying and fighting for tomorrow
so that the key to the lock of who she really is
will be found and the mystery can then be solved
in effect helping her to find the right path to walk
the path that leads from today to a certain tomorrow

the saddness on the billboard display of her face
is broadcasted across dimly lit rooms of early mornings
sometimes as much as he wants to help her
he knows that the only person that can save her
is herself and can never be anyone else

he kisses her forehead and pushes her away
while wondering why his genuine care
is once again not enough to make a difference

he keeps forgeting that he can't save the world

[Illuminated]

One World

And as I look deep inside your eyes
I can see the love that we have
Because deep within each other
There’s the endless love we have

There’s no limit to what we have
I can’t stop telling you that I love you
Because I feel you there with me
And together in life, to live together

So I feel what we have
And hold you strong, because you’re everything I have
And hold you next to me, because I need you with me
So hold my hand

And come with me, to greet this world
That we have created, with our love
And don’t let go, there’s more to life
There’s more to see

But if this is gone, if you let go
There will be rivers of tears
Down the road, in the path
To keep on moving ahead

So don’t let go, hold me strong
Walk on with me
To this one world that we have created
And as we continue to grow, we hold strong

Because you understand the meaning behind this love
What it means to have true love
What it means and feels like to live it
So don’t let go, there’s no need to

This is us, we are one
And together we stand and we move on
To this one world that we have
That we have created, with our own love

Copyright © 2004 Luis Mirones

-- for my ex.

[RevisionC]

bits and pieces of various writings

----
When i see your face
I see the burning in your eyes
The love in your heart
The sparkle in your eyes

She talks to me in my mind
Speaks to me through the images
Tells me that I'm always hers forever
Just dont need to speak


-----

Starts to fall torwards the ground
Always tormented by the others around her
Always contaminated by the people who love her
Trys to be happy but is always brought down by the lonlieness

Oh my beautiful girl
Tries not to think about the world around her
Tries not to be cruel but destroys it under her thumb
Will you not be there for me in the end she says

Why do you do this to yourself she asks
Why do you feel this pain
Do you like to hurt yourself she asks
Why do you hurt yourself every day

I hurt myself today
I did not want to but I could not stop myself
Dragging the knife against my skin.
I didn't want the pain but there was no other way to see if I was alive
I just wanted to see if I had already died

I want to get out and see the world with the one I love
I want to get out and see what I have become
Why do all these people take me for granted
Is it because they want to hurt me or just to stab me in the back
If it's the latter they can take it all away

I just want to run and fly as free as the wind
I want to be on my own terms not on some bullshit rules
People always telling me what to do
What to say, what to wear. what to think

If thats the way it will be
Then take it all back
Take it all back

-------

when this life ends
when your about to crack
when the ball drops
you'll fall flat on your back

when the crystal breaks
when the ice melts
you'll know your life is over
then you'll find yourself in hell

what is this life for
is it even worth living
why do we ask such questions
when we already know the answer

come on come on
i know you can
give me the hope so I dont scream
give me the words to make me dream

why is this world in such disaray
why is there no one here even worth talking to
why has everyone I've ever loved gone away

the rivers fill with the blood of your victims
the seas turn to bright red
the skys blacken over
while the heavens shead that one last tear

[Ink Blot]

IF I KNEW

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "I'm sorry," !
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

[DeAtHmOnGeR bEaR]

The Phone Call

Ringing, ringing
And here I sit - so very scared
Afraid to pick up
Afraid of what I'll hear
Afraid of what they'll say
Because I'm a failure -
Oh how I failed you, baby
I'm not sure how
But in the end it's all the same...
You're still sick
They still don't know what's wrong
So the phone rings, baby
So the phone rings
And when that phone stops ringing
Is when I really hear
I hear your imagined cries
And oh how I've failed you, baby -
I can never stop your tears..

[divapb]

Now I remember why this was always my favorite thread... I get to read inside of Cliff's heart. Thank you again, you are in my dreams again babe.

[tigermomma]

The Phone Call

Ringing, ringing
And here I sit - so very scared
Afraid to pick up
Afraid of what I'll hear
Afraid of what they'll say
Because I'm a failure -
Oh how I failed you, baby
I'm not sure how
But in the end it's all the same...
You're still sick
They still don't know what's wrong
So the phone rings, baby
So the phone rings
And when that phone stops ringing
Is when I really hear
I hear your imagined cries
And oh how I've failed you, baby -
I can never stop your tears..
Lauren, this made me cry. <3

:sok:

[Yakko Red]

Now I remember why this was always my favorite thread... I get to read inside of Cliff's heart. Thank you again, you are in my dreams again babe.

:catalyst:

[Yakko Red]

right now

i'm the fires that burnt down the greatest of cities
the anger that leveled the great armies of rome
the bitter fury that incinerated hiroshima
a typhoon slamming into the island paradise

right now i'm the all these things and much more

want to fight a wall in a fight i could never win
let my fists bleed and bleed until i can feel no more
wander aimlessly, pointlessly, and wrecklessly
maybe wake up in a gutter staring at the stars

all i wanted was a simple and normal life
i just want to not be a burden anymore
and some variable striving towards a solution

i want to be a better man
keep my head up
and not sink under the water to drown

i'm having a bad day again

[empath]

something i've been kicking around in my head for a while, that i just decided to write just now
so i can stop thinking about it:


Grace - a love poem.

Something in her eyes reminded me of
becky, the first girl i ever loved, the first girl
i knew that grew breasts.
she said her name was 'jenny'
'from the block?' i said lamely
and she laughed but she didn't mean
it, but it's the effort that counts

we talked about nothing for a while,
but everything seemed to mean
more than it should have
and i thought, 'why am i doing this
again.' letting myself fall in love
with a stranger again
you always start as strangers and then
finally end up that way, strange
and estranged, staring across
a chasm of misunderstanding.
'who are you? and how can
you like that movie? after all
this, how can we still not know
each other?'

is it worth it? i thought, as I watched
her playing with her hair, and a curl
falling just so across her forehead
catching the light. so much of our
lives have passed by already before
we met, there's no hope of ever
really knowing each other, of even
understanding what we see in
each other.

can i forgive her, i thought as she
touched, softly, the back of my hand
for not liking me for the right reasons
for not really understanding how I really
feel about god or about anything
that matters. Can I forgive myself
for trying again?

and then i said something that i thought
that only i would get, and she got it
and there it was again, i recognized
something in her, and i let part of her
slip inside me, that's how it always starts
a slow intermingling of minds, and yes
i thought, it's worth it, it's worth it
to forgive an imperfect love, because
the attempt is what makes us human

Yes it's worth it, yes, and yes and yes,
and always,
yes...

[Illuminated]

World of Fantasies

World of fantasies
Created by dreams
In a warm and comfortable bed
In a time of peace

Where no one bothers me
Fantasies are made
The impossible is now possible
And the war is now over

I wish to stay in this world forever
To never wake up and see suffer ever again
For, I fight to stay asleep
As this comfort may never be felt again

There are no limits
There is no end
It's a world
A world of fantasies

That is created by dreams
Time goes by
And I find myself
Going back to the world of pain

My soul cries out for more sleep
As it can't take more of the world of pain
My heart is scared
And my eyes struggle to stay closed

World of pain, would you please
Just let me be?
I don't want to feel your pain and anger anymore
While I sleep

The lights of heave
Come across my room
And everything is so bright
That my eyes can't keep closed

"I'm back"
Is what I say
For, I have returned from
The World of Fantasies

-Luis Mirones

[Article One]

bleeding out my thoughts onto a
flimsy and unfolded paper cup
drifting away into the realms of this
weary and aching remedy

and as surely as you came to me
quidkly she runs away
pass into a dream if you
think you could cross that line
and step into my eager mind
around here i am lord and king
selfish and arrogant and angry
around here i am lord and king
and you are my crumpled paper cup

and as safely as i bleed through you
trickling i run away
pass into an afterlife if i
thought i could boldly linger
and freely leave my lifeless body
out there i am lifestream's servant
humble and righteous and free
out there i am not your servant
and i am my own waking memory

screaming out my thoughts to a
less than likely female hero
drifting away into the realms of this
weary and aching remedy

a screaming thought dedicated
to my own waking memory...

[Article One]

and then i said something that i thought
that only i would get, and she got it
and there it was again, i recognized
something in her, and i let part of her
slip inside me, that's how it always starts
a slow intermingling of minds, and yes
i thought, it's worth it, it's worth it
to forgive an imperfect love, because
the attempt is what makes us human

Yes it's worth it, yes, and yes and yes,
and always,
yes...



im not going to quote the whole thing...just that part cuz it really crosses the proverbial t...

but dude, thats some really good shit. :thumbsup: the whole thing i mean.

[Yakko Red]

this thread makes me happy

[empath]

im not going to quote the whole thing...just that part cuz it really crosses the proverbial t...

but dude, thats some really good shit. :thumbsup: the whole thing i mean.
thanks, i was worried for a second that i just dumped my heart out on the page and everyone was just going to ignore it...

[Article One]

i like that its simple and conversational...it adds the right touch to it.

[nyhope]

im not going to quote the whole thing...just that part cuz it really crosses the proverbial t...

but dude, thats some really good shit. :thumbsup: the whole thing i mean.
:amen: about the whole thing and i agree with doug about that part.


that was awesome john... grace is the perfect name for it too.

[DeAtHmOnGeR bEaR]

Lauren, this made me cry. <3

:sok:

Thanks, Kristen. I was crying last night while I wrote it... haha.

[Yakko Red]

all the way
so far away
at the end
don't even know
why i dialed you
guess i hoped
just to jive
bounce thoughts
back and forth
maybe ask
if you're safe and warm
you know
those little things
that people can ask
that mean nothing
or a whole lot of something
maybe i just wanted
to hear your voice

don't mind me though
just a lonely bastard
who's possibly had
too much to drink
i know i can call you
but i won't
scared you'll get to know
how sad i sometimes can get
and it always feels
that drives people away

i won't call anyone
not even you
not like this

[Yakko Red]

his toes teetering on the edge of a skyscraper
a construct with all it's floors on fire
and upon inspecting the ground far below
with it's ants and toy cars in motion
it's a definite suicide fate for any that fall
even for someone that is battle hardened
even for someone that has the scars he does

in front of him is another building
the space between him and there
could possibly be made if jumped
but it might be just out of reach as well
no doubt about one thing
the only option is to move foward
no matter what the risk

before him is salvation or his demise
there is no other choice but this one
it's time to gamble with his only possession

he takes several steps back for a running start
and full speed he takes off for his destiny
with a leap the dreamer finds himself soaring
arms outstretched and heart full of hope
death or life
he wonders if he'll wind up in a better place